Tarradiddle.

Jennie! tagged me with a meme so I wouldn't quit my blog, and so my blog lives another day.

1. What I was doing 10 years ago:

You were there, in my life and in my plans, and every single day would start the same way: Hello, beautiful. Hello, love. And then like that you were gone. You were gone, and you came back, but not really, and then you were gone again. For good. You never did tell me why.

2. What 5 things are on on my to-do list for today:

I sweat, I seethe, I ask Will you PLEASE leave my office?, I sweat, and I drink.

I am not having the best of days.

3. Snacks I enjoy:

We never ate much when we were together, too busy, I suppose, to attend to the less immediate needs of our aching bodies. We ached for each other, for our tangled hearts, our entangled limbs, and yet we ached for freedom too. And now that freedom we have I remember the soup, smoked salmon chowder, how much it surprised and overwhelmed me. Like you.

4. Things I would do if I was a billionaire:

The light was paling beyond the drawn curtains, and though we couldn't see it, our bodies knew instinctively. Exhausted we drew deeper into the folds of blankets around us, relaxing against one another until the skin separating us dissolved, leaving no choice but to melt into each other. I mustered a sleepy smile and with eyes barely open managed to speak. I know you've said that you don't want any more pets after the dogs, I began, feeling the weight of his arm around my waist grow momentarily heavier in confirmation, but in this life I'm imagining for us - the one that we'll never live - is it okay if we get a puppy?

He nuzzled his nose further into the knotted strands of hair on the back of my head until I could feel his warm breath on my scalp. Mmm hmm, he exhaled wearily, the waves of torpor moving in with the rising moon.

Is it okay if we get a big puppy? A mastiff maybe? This I asked weakly, eyes now fully closed and body nestled permanently it seemed into his.

Anything you want, darling, he whispered into the back of my neck.

And with these words into sleep I drifted, forever marrying myself to unutterable dreams, a playful giant running alongside our children across a vast, golden field.

5. Places I have lived:

Entirely in my own head.